My dear friend

I promise to be there for you.
To be someone you can confide in and look up to.
I will be there for you until the end of the race.
My dear friend, I want you to remember that it is okay to have both good and bad days.
Some days will be filled with laughter and joy.
Whereas some days will be stressful and painful.

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Although life might lose its meaning never give up .
You have to take care of yourself.
When you are having a bad day, take one day at a time and if you cannot take one day at a time, take one hour at a time.
If you cannot take one hour at a time, take thirty minutes or sixty seconds at a time.
Do whatever you can but, do not give up and keep moving.

The heartbreak

I wrote this sad piece in my diary three years ago when my boyfriend gave me a call and broke up with me. I was heart broken because¬† I had not done anything wrong but he chose to break up with me a week before Valentine’s dayūüėę. I cried myself to sleep that night and when I went to school I had puffy eyes and I had to apply a lot of eye liner . After school I went to town and bought myself yoghurt and chocolates . Writing really helpsūüôā .Although February is the month of love heartbreaks are inevitableūüė≠. Heartbreaks can be tough but sometimes you have to let go,take care of yourself and move on.

Dear Diary

You do not break someone’s heart if you love them. Where did I go wrong? I am hurt because you broke my heart and I hope that you will not regret the decision you have made.

Inga wani wakavimbisa” (you promised didn’t you ? ) to be my potter, my best friend and my boyfriend.
Why did you mold the clay if you wanted to watch it break ?

I will miss you but, I will respect your decision. You made me believe in love but I think the word Love does not exist in my vocabulary anymore. I will miss you but, I have so much school work and I have to keep up. My mother always says sometimes when you are lonely you have to busy yourself to the extent that you drop dead at night. Maybe I will meet someone who will sweep me off my feet .
Josh(not the real name) I hope you will be able to sleep well at night.

Around the campfire

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The day we sat around the campfire we realized that we had lost so much . We had forced ourselves to believe that we were immune to pain and we had decided to bottle our pain and anger inside. Little did we know that our emotions and feelings are alive and it is impossible to bury them.

We had carried heavy burdens on our shoulders because we thought it was shameful to openly talk about our emotions and feelings. There was a time I felt trapped and I believed that  there was no one who could save me. Whenever Jabu looked in the mirror he would shed a tear because his life was full of disappointments. Mbali had given up on love because everyone she met always broke her heart. Poor Jonso had recently buried the love of his life.

It is never easy for someone to admit that they are  depressed. This is because a lot of people in my society believe that being depressed is an act of attention seeking. This is why some people have decided to bottle their pain,anger and grief inside.

If someone saw us sitting around the campfire they would definitely conclude that we are happy bunch of friends. One  would conclude that we are brave, strong  and always happy. My friends and I have fought battles that could have killed us and sitting around the campfire is indeed a miracle.

I was not ready to say goodbye

There was a time I was hopeful that you would call and apologize for leaving without saying goodbye. I wanted you to hold me so tight and never let me go. I remember crying myself to sleep every night because my life was incomplete without you. You made me smile, laugh and I adored you.

I thought that the pain would get better with time, unfortunately the pain only  intensified. Why did you choose to leave when you were my ray of sunshine? When I buried you I also buried some part of me and the thought of you always wet my cheeks.

I prayed for you every night before I retired to bed not because l wanted to but, I had become so used to doing so. You were kind, loving and caring. I was lucky to have you in my life.

There was a time I was bitter and angry but I realized that you always wanted the best for me. How I wish I  could see you again. If I had the chance to see you again I  would  remind you that I love you. I really wish I could see you again . I was lucky to have you in my life and I will always make you proud.

Remembering our loved ones whom we have lost.

A reminder


You deserve to be happy, to smile more often and laugh at the top of your voice.
Always make decisions that will make you happy.
Do not expect too much from anyone, human beings do make mistakes too.
Be content with what you have and find peace over the things that you cannot change.

Read a book , try a new recipe or go for a walk.
If anything costs your mental health then it is too expensive.
You should be able to make decisions on your own be INDEPENDENT and not DEPENDENT on the next person.
You should be able to know how to cope when you have to deal with disappointments.
When you make a mistake, I hope you will be able to learn from those mistakes too.

My love you should be able to distinguish between needs and wants .
What are your strengths ?
Continue to use your skills so that you do not lose them .
What are your weakness ?
Work on  perfecting them.

Treat yourself the way you want the next person to treat you.
You have come a long way, you have survived battles that could have killed you.
It is okay to rest but, its never okay to quit .
You are a superhero in your own right.
Promise me one thing , that you will be always follow your dreams.

Stepping out of your comfort zone

There are two groups of people, those who are willling to try and the other group of people  are scared to try . The first group of people is confident, brave and are willing to ask for help .

The second group of people is scared to raise their hand and try. This is because every time they want to try something new they re-live  their past miserable experiences. Whenever they want to try something new they remember how people made fun of them and this is why they are scared of stepping out of their comfort zone.

Sometimes you have to be your own cheerleader and soar like an eagle. When you were young you fell countless times but, did you not pick yourself up? The answer is definitely a YES because you are here today. My darling never give up and always choose to be happy. Raise your hand so high and ask a question , make comment a or contribution and be the best version of yourself. Take the leap of faith and raise your hand .

Africa in a few years time

Dear Daisy

I really miss you , I hope that the new month will be a fruitful one . You do not have to carry a lot of burdens on your own , sometimes you have to find someone to talk to. You are the the light of your society. To be honest I always knew that you had it in you, but you were scared of being a failure.

My dear a lot has changed , the change has been both negative and positive .The factories in most of the developing countries have been re -opened and many youths have been employed. I am actually happy because at least the majority of the population now believes that working hard pays off. This is because a lot of people had nothing to look forward to.

There has been free access of education, health care and many communities now have access to running water. The African continent has the same currency how cool is that ? We now have the same prices for common brands such as Defy,LG,Philips to name a few.

Corruption came to an end , I know that it is hard to believe . If anyone commits corruption they will face the full wrath of the law. The youths are now involved in the decision making processes too.

The continent has been hit by many natural disasters but people have managed to work together and relocate the victims to safer ground. A lot of countries have been educating people about mental health. My dear you will not believe how many people have suffered from depression and in some cases committed suicide.

I once suffered from depression and this is why I took the responsibility to educate everyone about mental health.

There is one thing I wish I knew when I was 23 ,when I was still young , full of life and fearless. Life has made me realize that I have the flame in my eyes .Never let anyone extinguish that flame because the world deserves to see the flame that will bring change.

Farewell

Mrs Brown

HEY …… You

You deserve to be  happy.
You have to be your own super hero and learn to fight a lot battles on your own .
The people who are close to you might not be there for you forever .
This is why you have to fight a lot of battles on your own.
I hope you love the person you see when you look in the mirror.
I hope that you are proud of him or her.
You should be proud of that person because he or she has either lost and won a lot of battles .  Some of the  battles have wounded you, killed some part of you and even left you with permanent scars.

Why are you scared to try ?
Are you scared that people will make fun of you ?
Are you scared that you might lose ?
Sometimes you will only know how amazing you are when you raise your hand and  give it a try .
Go on and follow your dreams,ask questions and try something new.

Always remember that you are special and someone out there admires you.
You are a special gem and there is no one like you.
The only competition that you can compete with is the person you see when you look in the mirror.

Hey You, take care of yourself.

Stamps

On which day of the week did the postman pass through your neighbourhood ?
Do you still remember the colour of the postman’s  uniform ?

The bell from the postman’s bicycle either brought good or bad news.
With soapsuds in her hands she received the envelope and stood by the gate and tore open the envelope. She was over the moon because her boyfriend had promised to come and visit her soon .

Mbuya Gosa was happy because her daughter -in-law had sent her the images of her newborn grandchild. She had already bought the portrait and all she had to do was hang the beautiful portrait in her living room.

Baba Ticha was notified that three of his cattle drowned. He had to send some money to his parents who lived in Bikita.

The postman became a friend ,a brother and a son in many communities. The postman did not only  deliver invoices but he also delivered  envelopes with different colours and designs. Those tiny stamps were a gate pass for many  letters to reach our family and friends who were in different towns,cities and countries.

During this era many people were able to communicate rather than send emojis, “Lol or K” after they had read a long message. A lot of people were able to express their emotions and feelings better.The letters were a special treasure and they were kept safely . During this era the letter boxes were treated like gold and¬† a lot of people always looked forward to posting their letters. The letter boxes were not rusty , the grass was always trimmed and the communal letter boxes were attractive . This was during the period when a few people had access to a cellular phone .

This was an era when stamps with different symbols and designs brought either good or bad news. This is an era I wish to re- live.

The post-graduation era

Dear Emily

I hope that this letter finds you well and in good health. Congratulations¬† my dear on completing your Bachelor’s degree in Accounting. I am so proud of you . I was really heart broken when I received the news that no guest would be allowed at your graduation ceremony.¬† This is because I had been looking forward to your graduation ceremony , but there will be always next time.¬†¬†Cousin I was hoping to meet a cute guy at your graduation ceremony and he would marry me , unfortunately my dream never became a reality. It is annoying when someone from our family has to ask me when do l plan to get married. Enough about my boring tales . I cannot believe that my cousin holds a first class degree in Accounting.

Firstly I would like to applaud you for completing your Accounting degree because a lot of people were either disqualified or they chose to quit before they managed to finish the race. The sleepless night finally paid off didn’t they ? Emily I do not mean to scare you but I would like to tell you about what can happen during post-graduation era.¬† Maybe if someone had sat me down and told me that graduating is not a gateway to being employed I could not have suffered from depression.

There was a time I cried myself to sleep each and everyday and I felt like I was trapped in a big box. I hated seeing my reflection on the mirror because I believed that I had disappointed myself. All I wanted was to be formally employed and be able to help my  mother with the bills. My life had become some sort of a routine and the only thing that managed to make me feel happy was falling asleep. The joy was only short lived because it was during the last quarter of the calendar year the temperatures were high in 2019.

Some of my friends were either employed or they were advancing their studies and your poor cousin had nothing to look forward to. Emily I have lost count of the resumes that I have sent via email or delivered physically. I remember submitting my resume at a particular organization but , the moment I walked out the lady at the reception threw my envelope in the bin.

A lot of people have made fun of me because they graduated after me but they have been formally employed. When I was about to give up on my life a close friend of mine advised me to concentrate on something that I deeply love and that was the birth of my podcast, my blog and scriptwriting. Maybe one I will be formally employed but I really enjoy being my own boss because I do reward my efforts by buying one of my favourite snacks , reading a novel or listening to the radio.

Emily this is not going to me an easy walk , but I pray that you do not lose yourself or give up during the process.

Lots of love

Takudzwanashe

*Ps these experience are not fictional but they are some of my experiences.

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